i'm dropping out of school. and i'm so happy.
this post has been one i’ve been putting off for awhile, but with school starting up again in a few days, i thought i would save everyone some time in asking me if i’m going back to school. the answer is absofuckinglutly not.
if i were to briefly summarize my relationship with education, it would be this: i love learning but i hate the education system.
i was a good student in school. i was all honors, AP classes, suma cum laude, honor society, all that jazz. but i never enjoyed going to school. i would devour books on my own time, and always flung myself full force into my learning outside school. but i could just never get into the cycle of sit in class, listen to lecture, take a test, and repeat. it’s not my learning style.
i went into college with the intention of pursuing theatre, but i quickly fell into taking business classes thinking that getting a “smart” degree would open up new opportunities to me. all it did was suck all the love i had for learning out of me. i quickly rationalized my lack of motivation was because i wasn’t at the right school. i took a semester off to do the disney college program (which was a whole experience in itself, let me tell you) and transferred to a different university.
i was so convinced this opportunity would be different. i was studying holistic healthcare in a totally new place. i was passionate about the subject matter, and i enjoyed the new campus.
but it still wasn’t right. my intuition was still screaming at me that this was just not my path. i spent three years of my life trying to bargain with my guiding voice, saying that i needed to finish college, just at a different place, or study something different, or take some time off…
as a start to prioritize growth in all aspects of my life, i have learned to trust that my intuition is my highest, happiest, most fulfilled self. and it is self sabotage not to listen to her.
so i’m not going back to school.
so what am i going to do instead? exactly what i was going to do when i graduated, just a year earlier.
i never had corporate work aspirations. my plan has always been to go to yoga teacher training and expand my business to spread my message of intentional living and growing to your highest potential. and i don’t need a 4 year degree for those.
only you know your potential and what is right for you. the outside world has no idea what is the most beneficial for you, and you can’t keep making decisions based on outside expectations and think you’ll be fulfilled.
live in your power.
live in your intuition.
live in your truth.
